The Realization

Things begin to start looking up but then begin to go back downhill, happens every time. Just little things and big things too. A lot of things just creeping back up from my past. Things I wanted to forget for good, things that I didn't want to have to explain to new friends, but eventually you're just going to have to.
Realising that all you want to do is leave this place to get away is hard, because you need money to do so. The focus now is the future and ignore all the things that have gone on in the past. I've decided I'm going to have a clean slate and start again and go for what i want.

The Finish Line

This year has gone so quickly, it's actually unbelievable. It still feels like yesterday, when I was going into orientation for year seven, not going to orientation for year twelve. I keep saying to my friends I could imagine myself in year nine or year eight but never year twelve, I never really imagined myself all grown up. The thought of growing doesn't exactly scare me like most people, it's just something to look forward to. To be all out on your own.
Finally finding what I feel like I am meant to do with my life and my purpose is the one thing that concerns me the most. This time next year I will hopefully be able to for fill my aspirations and dreams and finally do what i want to do with my life. That's what excites me the most, this is now my motivation.

The Vain

It's really starting to get me down how many people are so concerned with looks and I've recently just realised how vain most people are now. Everyone has this focus on picture perfect, when there is no such thing. I love the fact that some people have no care in the world and the last thing they would think about is what they look like. I wish most people (mostly girls) had the courage to do that.
Appearance wrecks everything. So many people aren't friends with other people just because of what they look like not for the person they actually are, which isn't the way it's meant to be.
People should be accepted for who they are, not for what they look like and I'm done with people so concerned with their looks or others. There are more important things to think about other than the definition of beauty.