The Right

Just thinking about the way I want everything to pan out and how everyone just says, "think positive". I just don't understand how thinking a good way can get you what you want, I'd rather the harsh truth than that.
The truth can kind of be like a bad accident or maybe a deer in the headlights. It's shocking and maybe even too harsh then you thought, but what would you rather? False hope, or harsh realisation?
There's that feeling you have in your chest when you know something is right, even though that feeling makes you feel kind of sick. i love that feeling, must be the feeling of hope or something along those lines.
If only that feeling could last.

The Hardworker

The people you hate are the ones that just get it easy, the ones that don't have to do anything to get what/who they want. With exams coming up, those certain people will just breeze through without a worry (not even studying or trying) but then the workers will be disappointed.
With that the result of next year comes along, wondering whether to even bother with your aspirations or not. Then the thinking of the consequences come in and the list of pros and cons, what are you going to do now?
Those decisions will just have to be made soon.

The Situation

I can't help but think, if this moment right now is going to carry on, nothings going to change and that has to be my worst fear. The fear of nothing changing, everything being the same and i'm not talking groundhog day no change.

As you get older you just wake up, make your way to the boring dead end office job, do the same routine everyday. I couldn't think of anything worse. Now it feels like it's just getting harder and harder to achieve your goals and dreams, because everyone expects so much of you.

I'm sick of it, trying and trying and getting nothing out of it and just getting worse. Lets just hope that it can't get any worse.